Mother's Day + Going Back to Work...

What a bitter sweet week this has been. We had friends over for dinner and took our baby boys to Disneyland, went to the Fullerton farmers market and had dinner with other friends, attended a wedding and caught up with some old friends, went to Unique L.A and met artists and designers from all over America, and finally wrapped the week up by celebrating my first mother's day.

Mitch woke up and made my favorite...pancakes with craisins and almonds! He also spoiled me with a card, new clothes, and an awesome new wallet (which I promise to later photograph and do a separate post for). It was such a special day that I will forever hold close to my heart. I love this holiday-it's like a second birthday for mamas!

I also spent my last full week of maternity leave with my head held high! I was not going to break down everyday and bawl like...well, a baby. I soaked up every second of every day this past week giving James extra kisses and longer than usual hugs, all the while reassuring myself that going back to Starbucks is a good thing, and that this will only make me love my baby more by working hard for our family...no matter how much it breaks my heart to have to leave him for roughly 20 hours a week. I know, it's only part time, but in my head I can't shake the fact that it's almost one whole day a week apart from my son. Ugh. No one told me how awful and hard this would be.

So as I start my work week tonight, I am going to be telling myself every day: I am blessed to have a job. I am blessed. I am blessed. I AM BLESSED. 

And if you're wondering what we will be doing for childcare, this is the pretty much the gist: I will watch James during the day while Mitch is at work, and Mitch will watch him when I work in the evenings and on Saturday mornings/early afternoons. Mitch's mom will also watch him once a week at our place on Wednesdays so I can do a morning shift. Roughly 20 hours per week is all I can really work with such a tight schedule, but hey, it's enough for our family and I can't complain about that.

But I have to be honest and say that I am truly trusting in the Lord for his strength and provision as I'm sure this will be a tough week for me to put that green apron back on.

Have any advice for me? What do/did you do to prepare your heart and mind for the going-back-to-work blues? So far I'm just telling myself to take it one day at a time. I mean COME ON-just look at that sweet little face at the top of this post! Who wouldn't crumble inside knowing they'd have to be apart from that darling boy?!